AWAITING 2018

2017 was probably the hardest year of my life, I internally struggled through so many things, cried on the bathroom floor a number of times, and doubted myself more times than I can count. I didn’t have many friends, I felt very alone, and had no idea what I wanted to do with my life which caused a lot of anxiousness, stress, and disappointment in myself every time I was asked what I was doing with my life. However, through all those things I learned I can change and I don’t have to be who I was in high school. I grew a lot and learned I have a lot more gumption than I ever thought I could possibly possess. I may not have succeeded this year at all by the standards of the world because it looks like I haven’t done much. I’m not in college, I didn’t get engaged, and I didn’t go to Europe to find myself. But I did learn to throw away other peoples expectations and become truly grounded in who I am and where I am in life. Especially in who Christ says I am. I learned to truly trust God’s plan for my life. God does provide even when I don’t know how, and no matter what He is always there. This year was a struggle, but it was joyful. Looking to the future I feel peace and I smile because even though I don’t know what the rest of my life looks like I know that God’s plan is ultimately the best and better than I could imagine. Maybe 2018’s recap blog post will look similar to 2017’s or maybe it will look completely different, either way, I’m waiting with anticipation for what’s next.